Thursday, November 15
I WANNA SLEEP BEAUTIFULLY AND NV WAKE UP EVER AGN.teach me how to die beautifully can?
suicides look awful larh or even natural deaths look awful. Perhaps only one outta one hundred pple passed away peacefully while sleeping but they all still nt beautiful becos of the wrinkles, white hair or no hair etc ...
i watched one vcd befored from thai, it's video dwn all those real deaths and how they all look lyk. i was lyk in pri sch while watching it w/ my momma and her frens. AND i fell in love w/ gross and violent movies aft tt. =)
i saw a few deaths on the vcd which were (rating: pretty as in pretty gross 1 -5 beautiful as in extremly beautiful /gross)
- hanging ownself to death - the neck really grew or rather stretch longer and your eyes will pop out slightly. (1.5/5)
- drowning - your whole body will be bloated and your skin turns pearly white.your eyes became goldfish's eyes , opened wide and poping out. (4/5)
- hacked by pple- they found the body tt had rotted. so flies was ard and flesh coming out. abit black red for the flesh i say.(4.5/5)
- jumping off a building - perhaps it's the building too high but his head was splited and brain coming out. ( 4.5/5)
eh. cant rmb anymore. but if im nt wrong kill yourself by taking pills will make you fugly also foam or whatever shit comes outta your mouth and if they happen to be able to save you, the process in saving you hurts damn much, imagine a tube through your mouth or nose or both sucking out everything. ouch
ANW, for point no. 4. i do hav some pictures on it interested? tell me, i'll email them to you. LMAO.
i think i will burn myself crazy or silly or whatever larh, nth is helping me and everything seems to make it worse. FUCK IT.